Home.

And so it begins, the place where we make "our" home. Friday was moving day, we did it with the help of a small army. So very grateful to friends and family for all the help!

Like I've said before I am blessed with wonderful friends. These girls have been with me through my worst, and now to share this happy transition with them was truly wonderful.

 

Thankful

She and her husband ROCK!

 

This would be my Dads 3rd time building Lo's bed, and I promised the last!

 

She's currently the only on with a room together

In the chaos and mess of boxes, I am so in love with this home and the life I have been given to live. Cheers!

 

 

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Kauai for the Win (or wedding)

During Christmas we set a date (October 1st), a venue (my friends beautiful barn), and even attended a bridal show. We tossed around catering ideas, came up a quick list of people, that grew to the point of an anxiety attack....for me.

This weekend we scrapped it and went with what felt right for us, Kauai (after all I did get engaged there almost two years ago) It makes perfect sense and puts us at ease. Ricks been coming to Kauai for years because his Mom spends 3-4 weeks a year there. I ventured there for the first time with Lo in 2011and have been back each year. Last year after spending about 6 months browsing the resale market for timeshares we bought one at the same complex Ricks mom stays. We had already booked our week there for this summer when the kids can go, Ricks mom booked a week for that time as well and we had already invited my parents so after a long talk and really going through the big wedding logistics and cost, this not only fit our budget better but actually got us excited.

Truthfully a big wedding was never for either of us. The thought of walking in front of that many people and talking, terrifies me. Not my thing. As we started to talk about logistics and how much time we would actually be able to spend with all our lovely guest, we couldn't help but worry about not giving enough of our time to everyone.

Planning is also neither of our fortes (why we are buying a house rather than building), every decision we were starting to have to make, we couldn't actually make a decision. Now we are turning it over to a wedding planner, and showing up!

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To Be Continued....

I love blogging. I love organizing and putting my thoughts into words. I'm doing a lot of it currently, but in my head. You see we are in the midst of a winter wonderland here. The first in several long years and I am maximizing every second of free time to be in it. My skate ski's reside in my car as do my clothes to change into after work. I have a system DOWN that maximizes my window between work and school pick up. I'm skiing and doing yoga and on the rare days I can't get to one of the THREE Nordic ski areas less than an hour from my house I do a run (with very little enthusiasm). That's it, because as soon as this snow melts I'll have 10 months to do the rest.

So you'll have to pardon my sporadic blogging for a bit. A lot is going on with kids and wedding planning, that I'd love share.......soon.

 

But with views like this can you blame me!

 

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K-9

He's my faithful and fiercely loyal companion. My motivation to be outside.

He's neurotic when not exercised, but calmed when he's outside. I get it. I find the purest form of peace being outside.

 

There are places I wouldn't have adventured to without him. He gives to me a sense of security.

Today I skied three miles up and three miles down a closed road on my "farm" ski's, just he and I.

He's slower these days, but he's still there. We are in tune with each other knowing what the other needs. The nine years I've had with him have truly been a gift. A part of my heart already aches for the day he is not there.....

 

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2015

We bid 2015 a fond farewell. It's been a good year.

My goal in life is simple, to spend as much time in the company of those I love. Be satisfied with each and everyday lived. 2015 was all that and some.

After the crap I went through in 2009/2010 with my Ex and my friend (at the time), I can't adequately explain what all this does to your well being, both physically and mentally. It takes a long time to fully recover. 2015 was to be that year for me. My mind is happy and calm, I have solid relationships in my life, the utmost appreciation for exactly where I am right now. Truthfully all that "crap", has made me a much better person.

I sold my house this summer, and after 4 years with Rick we moved in together. A transition I was a little worried about. After being on my own it was scary to think I could lose myself again. However, I'm with a man that I love very much, and know he loves me. This transition has been amazingly good for me and even better for my daughter. I am so happy to be in a family environment with her again. I love our life together. Having only one child home now is really quite fun. We miss my son, and he'll be back living with us in the new house, but he's an adult. He goes to college, works, pays for his things, sets his schedule. I'm responsible for only one child's schedule anymore. Our house is quiet, and I love it. I love our dinners at the table with cocktails and conversation. Evenings on the couch watching movies, it's bliss.

I use this term loosely, but have formed a new "friendship" with my ex. It's nice that he's honest about who he is and what he's done. I appreciate that and can move on. We've had a great year together in terms of co parenting, even being able to spend Christmas morning all of us together.

I no longer engage with those I don't want to. There are people I will never allow back in my life and I've made peace with that. Where as before I would try to make some sort of understanding for them, feeling compelled to answer their messages, I don't anymore. At the same time I reconnected with some wonderful people I went to school with, and can't help but feel grateful for that.

I've started practicing yoga. In large part because of the Costa Rican retreat I signed up for. I had absolutely no idea how good this practice would be for me. My goal for 2016 is to continue with this practice, better my own practice and be there at least twice a week. I love the combination of mind and body. I leave yoga, with an excitement for life.

Our holidays were spent home, I took off quite a few days and it was lovely. We are having the best winter in years. Providing plenty of snow, lots of skate skiing and snowshoeing!

Sad to say good bye to 2015, but will welcome the chance to make a great 2016

 

 

 

 

Oh and we finally set a "date" for the wedding in 2016! Stay tuned.....

 

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