March 1st, three years ago I faced a future of uncertainty, now it's a day to celebrate new beginnings.  That day three years ago was the hardest of my life.  I walked into a court room with three of my best friends and lawyer, a dear friend as well.  As the petitioner in an uncontested divorce I was the only one that needed to show up.  My friends, voluntarily took off from their busy days to be there for me.  I will never be able to adequately express what this meant to me.   I remember walking through the metal detector and being overcome with all of it.  My heart was racing and I couldn't breath, a full on panic attack and there they all were.  My papers were stamped, my 12 year marriage dissolved.  That was it.
Somehow in the hours that followed a lightness came over me.  It was done, no more wondering, no more hoping, no more being disappointed, it was done.   My friends and I gathered to say a toast to the future, met up with the rest of the girls.  We laughed and cried through the evening.  This was love, and I am lucky enough to experience it.
Fast forward three years.  I am living life on my terms, supporting myself and kids and running a business.  Appreciating and enjoying life more.  I am with a man, that loves me for exactly who I am.  My relationship with my kids was only strengthened through all of this.   I continue to be in awe that somehow I met the ladies that are now my best friends.  My life feels full and blessed, and I don't take it for granted.  
I have always believed life is a series of lessons, ones we should learn from and continue on,  improving along the way!  Cheers 

2 comments:
God is good and faithful, isn't he? Thankful for that. Hugs to you today, Jenni!
Thank you Kristen! And yes, it was comforting to put my trust in him, I feel as though this was his plan for me all along!
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