These times, they are a changing

Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

This is a post I have been trying to come up with for the last couple of weeks.  This blog has become sort of a journal of my life, opened for viewing.  I have such wonderful relationships with so many of you, but find myself so busy at work, or after school with the kids that I haven't been able to share some major changes in my life with you in person.

This is not easy to write.  But because this is my life and futures posts will reflect the future challenges as well as hopeful joys, I will share with you.
A few months ago Lars said he was unhappy, I assumed this was just one of life's little bumps in the road.  In general the life I was living with him, and the kids felt happy.  I will not go into the months of pleading, but the outcome was he "ultimately needs to be happy" and that is not with me.  Lars moved out last Saturday, and I filed for divorce.

I have lost the person I have shared the last 14 years of my life with.  This is the person I have shared all major life events, lost loved ones and friends, but also shared daily mundane things with!
This is not the path I would've chosen.  Another quote I love from Ralph Waldo Emerson  is "do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."  Time to forge my own trail!
I am learning (with the help of my friends) there is my voice of logic, and a voice of emotion. I am learning to stop asking for answers, because none will be given to my satisfaction. I am learning to lean on friends when that emotional side becomes too much.  I am learning to let go.

I will take this opportunity to bond with my kids in a new way, the three of us.  We will be OK, I know this.  I am grateful for all the love and support from the truly amazing people in my life.  Thank you!